Never intended to be bi just happened that way ,trying to quit.

I never thought about being bi when I was young it just wound up that way somehow ,I was afraid to complain about what was going on as a kid because the our families were friends,but a friend started sucking my cock when I was 12 , I started sucking him a year later and I don't know it I really liked it at first it was more peer pressure then anything but it was pushed on me daily if I was around him ,we always wound up in a 69 at some point during the day or just took turns sucking each other .
But after awhile it took root and it was like I needed it not so much after I first had a girlfriend but it was there always on my mind.
Thing I didn't know or figured til I was 15 was his Mom was having sex with him Rod and his brother Rick and their sister Rachel,
Rachel was a flat out whore had sex with boys or girls as much as possible Rod and I watched her go at with one of her girlfriend's one time ,it was pretty hot to watch ,Rod sucked my cock as I watched through a window.
I figured out their Mom was having sex with them because she would take Rachel or Rick by themself or with Rick and Rod at the same time into her room and lock the door and tell me to watch TV that she had to talk to them .
I slipped outside once and peaked in the window,she made them perform for her as she watch then she would have one fuck her while she sucked the other , she would have Rachel eat her or they'd 69 sometimes.
Once Rick started working she would just take Rod in her room and he'd eat her and fuck her .
It was really strange man to watch or just to think about .
But Rod sucked our other friends and his cousin Sam , but Rod told or ask the other if I sucked them or whoever,but soon it was around town and school and he blamed me for it getting out and I never told anyone til I was in my 40's .
We had a relationship for four years and it made me a sex junkie because I couldn't get enough I stuck to girls mostly after our relationship ended til I was 40 something I started again not that I wanted to I just felt I needed too after my wife and I slit up I got more into it again.
My 2nd wife had been molested by her uncle and a girl next door which she was just a whore I never knew til after she left that she was fucking everything she could when I was not around.
But any way being bi has costed me a lot of quality relationships because they hear I am bi or was bi as a kid and they go looking for the devil and find him and about me or they just figure I am seeing guys on the side and bale.
I tried a relationship with a few guys in the past 15 years but they didn't work out ,but now I just try to deny it and stay away from it and pray a lot to stay away but it's hard I am married again and told want to fuck it up.
She fucks me with toys and shit like that but isn't down with the bi or gay stuff at all ,but I am just trying to be good have been a long while since I had a guys cock and hope I can stay that way but I think about it a lot but always think about the cost.

i know you are pouring your heart out and i feel for you , but i can't help but get very excited thinking about that woman and her kids. double-edged sword i guess. my advice to you is , don't feel guilty for being bi. i did for many years, and it didn't do me any good. be yourself , and if that means you suck a cock once in a while , then by all means , enjoy it !

I never had a bi thought until I was in my 40s, Have tried to stop but just can't seem to. I love fucking ass and sucking cock. Yeah, the woman and her kids sounds pretty hot, sick but hot.

This touched my heart - thanks for sharing it. Sometimes, being bi is a bitch and a half because it always feels like you're compelled to keep having sex both ways and, yeah, having moments where you're having more sex with guys than you are with the ladies. The hardest thing about being bi is... trying to stay on the heterosexual side of things since, as we all know, the other side can bring a lot of grief into your life that you'd rather not have to deal with.

But you can't just turn bisexuality off - you just have to learn to just walk away from dicks if you really want to quit. It's not impossible but just very damned hard; I think about the many times when I said that I was just going to stick to women for sex but found that the "call of cock" was so damned powerful and it was just my luck that I'd abstained from sex with men and.. all kinds of sexy guys wanted to do something with me and how do you say no when every damned part of you is saying, "Oh, hell, yeah!" And the next thing you know, you're in a 69 with a guy while cussing yourself out for going back on your promise not to do this.

I realized that you can't quit being bisexual - you can only stop having sex with either men or women and do your best to resist temptation. I still say, "Whatever happens, happens..." and don't give it anymore thought because I am bisexual for life and that's just how it is.

I never wanted to be a Cubs fan.

i dont think about it because once i started doing bi sex liked it so hell i dont really care who i do it with

I never wanted to be bi either. If my wife found out, it would be over. Sneaking around to play with a guy and to have a cock in my mouth is such a rush. I'm very picky, so I don't play often. I accept my desires and just keep in mind to be safe.

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I never wanted to be bi either. If my wife found out, it would be over. Sneaking around to play with a guy and to have a cock in my mouth is such a rush. I'm very picky, so I don't play often. I accept my desires and just keep in mind to be safe.

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One of the things I've heard from both bisexual men and women has been, "I didn't ask for these feelings! How do you make them go away?" and the answer is that no one really asks for them; no one really expects such a drastic change in their thoughts and feelings; and as far as I know, you can't make the feelings go away and stay away - you can only do your best to ignore them. Some can ignore them successfully but, yeah, nope, many eventually give into these new and exciting thoughts and feelings while feeling a very strong compulsion to... have sex in this new, unexpected, and not asked for way.

I don't mind it. I just have to keep it a secret. I love sex, giving and receiving. Getting a bj is amazing, sneaking around and sucking on a hard cock is just as exciting.

You need to mentally accept the situation

I never intended to be bisexual. In retrospect, I think it was always a part of me, something that just took the right set of circumstances and the right partner to bring to the fore. When it happened, it took a few weeks to get my mind around engaging in sex play with another guy. The first few times it fely as if I was doing something very wrong, something I would quickly regret. But I was motivated to explore, and in about three weeks my inhibitions quickly disappeared. The first time I took my buddy Bruce's cock in my mouth, it just felt right, like something I was born to do, and I remember thinking to myself, "So this is what I've been missing all these years. I'm going to want to do more of this!" I've been happily bisexual for going on 19 years now and frankly and wouldn't dream of trying to quit. Sex with another guy is very different and very freeing. With women sex inevitably gets tied up in a complex web of emptions-- with thoughts of love and belonging and desirability. With another guy, it's just about good old fashioned, recreational, get-er-done, blow a load and pop a beer sex.

I can remember being fascinated (but not pleasured) by my erection at like 5 years old. I can remember being intensely curious about other people's genitals when I was young -- I GUESS because this was the part they always said you couldn't see right??

I remember at first just wanting to love people and I really didn't care WHAT was between their legs .. I remember wishing I could do more female chores when I was younger, I always seemed to get along better with females. The men? I don't know, they were always short with me, always gruff and sort of just expected that I would know how to do stuff. We really didn't get along that well.

I was abused at 7, it wasn't fun, but I figure it woke up some latent feelings in me that were likely always there and that sort of forced them to the surface. I hated that guy for a long time, waking those feelings up in me and then leaving me alone, to confront things all throughout my teen years. I really wasn't attracted to sex at all until after nature herself introduced me to maturation about 9 years old but all along I've had both girls and boys want to play, or kiss, or lick, or touch or see things. No ADULT ever groomed me, it was the other kids man .. peers and slightly older.

Nothing quite like telling folks what's going on eh? Maybe I wouldn't have been so confused.

Teen hormones really didn't help .. my mom dated a string of insecure, abusive men -- I would have done anything to not be like them, up to and including wanting to be female .. which worked at the time because as much as I wanted to hate guys for what they did to the women I loved nature was also like .. "Hold my beer" -- and i was completely infatuated with several of my classmates. Once puberty hit it was just easier to live with the factory installed equipment though .. too many hairs sticking out all over the place.

Both straight AND gay folks ASSURED me that bisexual people don't exist -- so I wasted about 20 years trying to decide whether I was one way or the other right? I didn't think it would be fair to get married, have a family -- only to find out I was "gay" later?? Only problem is I found BOTH attractive, in various different ways and times. I loooved sausage, be all about the sawwassage .. and then one day, I would see a piece of fish and be like, "Oh, I bet that would go well with some tartar sauce??!"

So at this point I feel like "sex" has ALWAYS been a part of my life; I used to think I was weird -- but the more I've read the more I realize that many of my experiences were typical, and even mild compared to what other people have been through.

The only way I was able to find any sort of sanity was to give up trying to label myself and be as honest as I can be with folks where it matters. I'm not out at work, because I'm there to work, but most of the family knows, friends that are worth keeping know -- I would rather be who I am than hide anything at this point -- life is just too short to be ashamed anymore.

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I can remember being fascinated (but not pleasured) by my erection at like 5 years old. I can remember being intensely curious about other people's genitals when I was young -- I GUESS because this was the part they always said you couldn't see right??

I remember at first just wanting to love people and I really didn't care WHAT was between their legs .. I remember wishing I could do more female chores when I was younger, I always seemed to get along better with females. The men? I don't know, they were always short with me, always gruff and sort of just expected that I would know how to do stuff. We really didn't get along that well.

I was abused at 7, it wasn't fun, but I figure it woke up some latent feelings in me that were likely always there and that sort of forced them to the surface. I hated that guy for a long time, waking those feelings up in me and then leaving me alone, to confront things all throughout my teen years. I really wasn't attracted to sex at all until after nature herself introduced me to maturation about 9 years old but all along I've had both girls and boys want to play, or kiss, or lick, or touch or see things. No ADULT ever groomed me, it was the other kids man .. peers and slightly older.

Nothing quite like telling folks what's going on eh? Maybe I wouldn't have been so confused.

Teen hormones really didn't help .. my mom dated a string of insecure, abusive men -- I would have done anything to not be like them, up to and including wanting to be female .. which worked at the time because as much as I wanted to hate guys for what they did to the women I loved nature was also like .. "Hold my beer" -- and i was completely infatuated with several of my classmates. Once puberty hit it was just easier to live with the factory installed equipment though .. too many hairs sticking out all over the place.

Both straight AND gay folks ASSURED me that bisexual people don't exist -- so I wasted about 20 years trying to decide whether I was one way or the other right? I didn't think it would be fair to get married, have a family -- only to find out I was "gay" later?? Only problem is I found BOTH attractive, in various different ways and times. I loooved sausage, be all about the sawwassage .. and then one day, I would see a piece of fish and be like, "Oh, I bet that would go well with some tartar sauce??!"

So at this point I feel like "sex" has ALWAYS been a part of my life; I used to think I was weird -- but the more I've read the more I realize that many of my experiences were typical, and even mild compared to what other people have been through.

The only way I was able to find any sort of sanity was to give up trying to label myself and be as honest as I can be with folks where it matters. I'm not out at work, because I'm there to work, but most of the family knows, friends that are worth keeping know -- I would rather be who I am than hide anything at this point -- life is just too short to be ashamed anymore.

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Nicely said! Kudos!

I once had a friend who was curious and looking to suck dick for the first time; he had mentioned this to me in the form of hitting on me, not knowing that I was an experienced cocksucker with a few years and a whole lot of sucked dicks under my belt. I let him seduce me but gave myself away when I sucked him and got him off in short order. To me, it was all nice, clean guy fun and we'd spent our afternoon sucking each other until neither of us could get it up again.

He was hyped and excited and we talked about this transition he had made but he had assured me that this was a one-time thing and that his curiosity had been satisfied and he'd never do it again. I saw him like a month later and he was pissed because he wanted me to tell him how to stop wanting to suck cock. At first, I thought he was joking but realized that he wasn't as he explained to me that he did not want the feelings he'd gotten after our time together and asked how to make them go away and I had the bad job of telling him that those feelings would never go away.

I would, later in life, think back about this moment and wonder that if I hadn't let him seduce me and we were just talking about it, I would have warned him that if we do this, what he's feeling might not go away. He was some kind of upset with me until I reminded him that he had hit on me and all I did was say yes - and I reminded him that he didn't seem to be all that upset about what we'd spent that whole afternoon doing. So, I talked to him about living with the thoughts and feelings; I told him that he could be strong enough to resist the temptation to suck dick and that some guys are able to do it - and told him that, no, I wasn't one of them but that's me and I'm comfortable with my thoughts, feelings, and actions when it comes to guys.

I really don't know if he fully adjusted to getting more than what he "asked" for but he had been serious about wanting to "quit." Even I would learn that just because you don't go on cocksucking rampages, the feelings and thoughts never go away; they just lurk in the background and poke at you until you wind up pulling out a guy's dick and sucking on it like your life depended on it - and while you're doing that, you're also wondering why you kept resisting...

People are talking about trying to quit, and all I'm thinking about is, HOW do I get my brains
FUCKED OUT. Why is it so difficult? I seem to be horney all the time. What do I do, buy a machine?

If what you are doing is causing a problem, quit doing it. If you find you cannot stop doing it, maybe it's time to reevaluate and decide if there really is a problem.

The main thing to be considered in this is that you can stop having sex with guys - and stop trying to - but the feelings never go away. At best, they get shoved to the back of your conscious thoughts and just lurk in the background and you never know when they're going to "peek out" and give you the hint that, hey, "Jim," you should call "Dave" and ask him if he wants to suck cock! You know you want to, and you know he wants to!"

Guys I've talked to who have climbed onto the "no dick wagon" and they've told me that the temptation to get off the wagon is great and... how do they resist the temptation? The answer is... you do the best you can and good luck in this. And, really, there's only one way the feelings are going to away and stay away... and ya might not want to do that at this point in things.

I agree. I want a FWB that I can play with multiple times a week. I want to come home and kiss my wife after swallowing his cum. I want to fuck her with his cum in my ass or go to sleep next to her with a load in me.

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I agree. I want a FWB that I can play with multiple times a week. I want to come home and kiss my wife after swallowing his cum. I want to fuck her with his cum in my ass or go to sleep next to her with a load in me.

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i like the way you think. it's too bad you live so far from me. i'd like to be the one to put a load of cum in your mouth and ass , just so you can feel dirty near your wife .