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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Now, my country cousins? Holy shit... if I thought I was a sexual wild child, some of them made me look like I'd never had sex before. The I-word didn't mean shit to them but I understood that where many of them lived - on family farms - well, they were kinda/sorta isolated; with one pair of cousins, their closest neighbor was easily two miles away. That pair, a boy and a girl, wow. Just wow. Utterly and totally shameless. I first saw them going at each other and I wasn't that shocked by it other than "updating my information" in that sense. Then I got invited to join them... and both of them took my ass apart at the seams and, at one point, my older sister - who I'd been having sex with fairly regularly at this point - joined in the fun.

The thing with them that really shocked me was that their parents [B]knew[/B] they were fucking. My shock got deeper when they both told me that not only were they allowed to fuck each other, the only restriction placed on them was they couldn't do any PDA stuff in front of their parents. Otherwise, they were free and clear to do whatever they wanted to. At first, I didn't believe them - I mean, who would? But I would later learn that, nope - they weren't lying. One day I was looking for them and asked their mom where they were... and she said, "They're probably off somewhere fucking..." and like all she said was, "They're outside playing."

Holy. Fucking. Shit.

And while I didn't learn anything new about having sex with them, I was duly impressed at how open and free they were with each other and even more impressed with their appetites for sex. For them, this was just plain normal although I thought that if my mom or grandmom - whichever one we went with - had the slightest hint about this, all holy hell would have broken out. My overall education on what sex was really like continued to grow.
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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]My views of sex were expanding exponentially and I was seeing where a lot of kids my age were indulging themselves with sex and in every way they weren't supposed to. I was learning that whatever we were doing was like a rite of passage and learning how to have sex when we "officially" got old enough to really do it.

And few were immune to the call. My female first cousin was (and still is) knock-dead gorgeous and it kinda freaked me out when I fell in love with her because, well, she's my cousin and it's not supposed to be like that... but I dealt with it, understanding that pretty girls, no matter who they are, are still pretty girls.

Me like pretty girls.

So maybe you can imagine how stunned I was when, while visiting her and her family where they lived, she pulled me to the side and asked, "Do you wanna have sex with me?" Everything in my head screamed, "Oh, hell no!" - and I heard a voice that sounded like mine said, "Yeah, if you want to..." I was surprised that her cherry was already gone - but I had learned that a girl could lose it without having sex. I was totally and completely blown away that, wow, man, she was damned good to have sex with and was pretty much a wild child, which was the exact opposite of her normally. Even at 11, she was a skilled cock sucker, loved to be eaten, and wanted to be fucked in both holes.

I figured, okay - this is a one-time shot and I'd be a dummy to not take it. After we had spent an afternoon alone with each other - I got tasked to keep an eye on her since I was the oldest - she was amazing and happy and I was more than satisfied and thinking, again, if I never have sex with her again, I'm okay. Well, that's not what happened. I was there for a week and except for the first day of my visit, we had sex every day I was there.

Today, I can't look at her without remembering that week... and I know she remembers it but we never talk about it.
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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]After breakfast, we got kicked out of the house to play and since one of our favorite hangouts was literally a couple of blocks away - the local creek - we wound up there and was chilling out in our favorite place... and was the perfect place and time to ask him what the hell his game was about.

"It just... feels better that way," he said. "And I wanted to do it with you and have wanted to for a while and, um, this is the way I figured out to make it happen."

"You could've just said so," I said. It is to note, at this point, that my cousin is just as intelligent as I am; he is one the smartest people I know even when we were kids... but this game thing, at the time, was one of the dumbest things I've ever heard come out of his mouth. Again, I'd eventually figured out why us playing the game worked for him.

He just shrugged and said, "Master, I don't want to suck your dick so please don't make me do it out here!"

And it was on. Again, I can't tell you how many times we sucked each other off other than to say it was so much that neither of us could get hard again. As went made our way back for lunch, the only thing he had to say about it was, "We still have plenty of time..."

Kicked out after lunch and told don't come back until time for dinner. Back to our place alongside the creek but this time with the venerable jar of Vaseline... and we spent the next couple of hours fucking each other silly - well, he fucked me twice and I fucked him no less than four times before, after looking at our watches, we jumped into the creek to clean up a bit and headed back for dinner.

And the only thing he said was, "I can't wait until it's time to go to bed!"

Neither could I. The game went on for almost a year and I was surprised that it lasted as long as it did. My cousin was so... straight-laced and nerdy - and even more than I was - that it was hard for me to really get my head around the fact that he liked doing this so much. For myself, eh, it was just more of the same as far as I was concerned but I never really figured that he'd want to do it, let alone have as much fun as he did being my "slave."

No one - not even our parents or grandparents - gave much thought to how much time we were spending with each other - we really did grow up together and as if we were really brothers. The game came to an end, not because he'd finally grown out of it... but because for the first time, we had to fight each other in judo. Without bragging, we were both [B]very[/B] good but while we had practiced against each other many times, we'd never fought against each other. We had the same rank - purple belts at the time - and when we found out that we were gonna have to do battle against each other, it made us both feel some kind of way.

The short version is that I won and I felt so bad about it and so did he... and that was end of our Master and Slave game. At first, I was pissed that he called it to a halt over my defeating him... but I understood it and accepted it. The game was crazy... but the sex and intimacy we experienced with each other was incomparable.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]During the following week, it was business as usual for me - school and homework, chores... and sex with whoever was available and wanted to do it. I don't recall thinking a whole lot about my cousin and his crazy game during the week but when my father told me Friday morning that he had talked to his father and was told my cousin wanted me to spend the weekend with him, I didn't think a whole lot about it - that, all by itself, wasn't unusual and more so since he was an only child. So, after school, I get "packed" up and go his house to spend the weekend.

When we got sent to bed, well, I knew we'd still be up talking about this or that... and was totally taken by surprise when he said, "Please, master - don't stick your dick in my hiney!" I hadn't been looking at him when he said that and when I did, shit - he was naked and lying on his stomach! I didn't even take the time to ask myself the obvious question; I just put a lot of spit on my dick and did what he said he didn't want to be done. As I entered him, I groaned and he groaned; he said, "It hurts, master, but don't make me want you to take it out!"

Whatever. I was in him and I fucked him and he was liking it and I should have expected the next thing out of his mouth: "Please, master, don't shoot your stuff in my hiney!" I shot my stuff in... and he giggled and moved under me in what I thought was a very happy way. But he wasn't done with the game and as I pulled out and rolled over he said, "Please master, don't order me to stick it in your hiney and shoot my stuff in you! I beg of you!"

A moment later, my cousin's dick was into my ass up to his pubic bone and feeling him on top of me and sliding in and out of me was sheer heaven. The expected "Don't make me shoot it in you!" thing came up and I managed to say, "Do it or else I'm going to punish you, slave!" and rejoiced when a few moments later, I felt his cock pumping away in my hole. Delicious. Nasty and delicious. Still very weird but okay. We took turns going to the bathroom to clean ourselves up and as we laid in bed, I was wondering what was next or if we were done for the night.

We weren't. It seemed that my "slave" really liked getting his dick sucked and sucking mine and I couldn't tell you how many times we did just that - I lost count after the third time - but the night for us ended with my dick buried in his ass and it seemed he liked that better than having his dick in my ass. But things didn't end there.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]The next day, we're off to the contest and not a word was said about what happened the night before. We both kicked ass and took names, came home with first place trophies in our age/weight divisions but because we got home late, it was decided that I stay the night again and go home in the morning.

We hit the bed, still amped up over our victories and out of the blue he says, "Don't make me let you do it to me."

Huh? What the hell is he talking about? And while I'm trying to figure that out, he's out of his pajamas and he's tossed the covers aside and his dick is quite hard. It clicks in my head now and I said something like, "You're gonna let me do it to you or else!" and he's saying, "No, please don't make me do that!" - while tugging on my arm to get me on top of him... and like I really needed to be urged. As I'm grinding on him, he's "begging and pleading" to not be made to do this but he's grinding back against me just the same. In my head, I'm wondering what the fuck is going on but this is feeling good and I squirt my stuff all over his cock and balls after feeling his cock twitching and I felt his stuff being smeared between us.

"We should stop," he said and I rolled off of him. I wanted to talk about his so bad it wasn't funny but he wasn't feeling it; the two of us just laid there and I'm confused and I don't know what he's thinking. I guess maybe ten or fifteen minutes later, he says, "Don't make me lie here while you suck my dick - please don't!"

I don't know what the hell is going on but I "make him" lie there as I sucked the sperm right out of him. I'm thinking he's gonna say that we have to stop again but he fooled me by saying, "Please, master, don't make me suck your dick!" What the... but, okay, slave, get down there and suck my dick and you'd better not stop! I gave the "command" and I'm surprised he didn't hurt himself getting between my legs and slamming his face into my crotch. He's sucking me, it's feeling heavenly, and he stops long enough to say, "Master, I don't want to swallow your stuff - don't make me do it, I'm begging you!"

It felt like I shot a gallon or two of stuff into his mouth and I didn't even have to "command" him to swallow it all, not that I was capable of speaking in that moment. Then he got up, laid next to me... and went right to sleep, leaving me lying there and wondering - again - what the fuck was going on with this? I mean, if he wanted to do it, all he had to do was say he wanted to do it and I was beginning to understand that this... stupid thing was his way of saying just that. As I dropped off to sleep, I was wondering if this was going to continue or not.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]That my male first cousin would, eventually, get the "urge" to experiment didn't surprise me one bit and more so given how close we were - and so close that everyone thought we were brothers and the closeness didn't end there; I'm 363 days older than he is and we like to kid each other and say that for two whole days, we get to be the same age.

The way he wanted to experiment drove me crazy and it wouldn't be for a whole lot of years before I'd understand why he went about it the way he did. I've mentioned it before but his way was for us to play "master and slave" with me cast in the role of master and "commanding" him to do this or that and with him saying stuff like, "Please, master - don't make me suck your dick!" which, of course, would be what I'd command him to do. The game made me, again, totally insane but, okay, cousin, if that's what makes you feel okay about things...

I remember the first time we wound up naked with each other although I don't quite remember what led up to this. I'm spending the night with him (nothing unusual about that) because we had a judo contest to go to the next day and it was easier to be at his house than my own. We're in bed, talking about the upcoming contest, talking technique and all that along with a bunch of other stuff and in my mind, one moment we're talking and the next we're kinda roughhousing... and then we're both naked and I'm on top of him frotting him (aka dry humping). It just happened; no real intent or my part or, I think, his. It's happening and we were both into it when I feel him kinda shudder under me, saw him blink, and then he said, "I think we should stop."

So we stopped. I had wondered why but I'd figure it out much later: He wanted to stop because he was about to cum. No biggie. We stopped and talked about some more stuff other than what we had just done and I didn't think much about it.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]Okay. She killed him and I really don't want to relive that except to say it was over some really dumb shit. Two nights before he died, we'd just finished doing each other while the girls were in the bedroom having fun with each other. He had told me that he was tired and I understood it; he was now really trying to turn his life around and he even said that being able to have sex with us and the way we were all into it made getting his shit straight a more serious priority. It didn't occur to me until some time after he died what he meant by his being tired - as in tired of living.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]Shit. Shit, shit, shit.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]I remember him and it's kinda obvious what I remember about him the most. Absolutely the best male lover I've ever had and I've had some good ones over the years. Guiltless, shameless, comfortable, and oh, so familiar. I often wonder if we would have ever gotten into this if he hadn't pestered me into doing it to him. Maybe and maybe not. Moot point. It happened. All of it did. It took a long time for me to admit just how much I loved having sex with him and more so when it didn't seem to bother him as much as it did me. Ha, I'd be pissed with him and say, "Aw, suck my dick!" - and he'd suck my dick and he was very damned good at it but why wouldn't he be since he had plenty of opportunities to practice on me? Was our genetic connection the driving force behind this? It didn't hurt and even if he didn't, I knew what that meant and it was just one of thing things that served to prove to me that what everyone was saying about sex - any kind of sex - wasn't the whole truth of things.

Good thing or very, very bad thing? I'll leave that for you to decide but I'm good with it because not being good with it doesn't make sense and more so when you still can't undo what has already been done. You can't take it back. There's no do-overs. I miss him and not just because he was my brother.[/FONT][/SIZE]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]The three of them were passed out and sleeping... and I sat there looking at them and feeling some kind of way about what had just happened. Guilty? No, not so much and I was a little miffed with myself because I didn't see any of this coming before the fact - and maybe I should have. Water under the bridge now; you can't undo what's already been done. Was this going to be a one-time thing? One part of me said it would be... but the other parts didn't believe it one bit. All of the cats were out of the bag now.

Shit. The whole situation "broke down" to the point where any of us could be having sex with someone but the highlight of every night was the four of us being together (after the kids were down for the night, of course) and whatever happened just happened. No shame. No guilt. No jealousy. Sex in just another of the many ways it could be done. I remember talking to his girlfriend one day to feel her out about what had been going on and she said she had never felt so free and safe having sex before. She said, "You two obvious have done this before..." and I said we had - how did she feel about that?

"I think it's the way brothers should be; you two get along better when you're having sex than you do when you aren't," she said and accurately so because there were still many times during any part of any day when I wanted to beat him to a pulp for something and just as much as he wanted to give me a beatdown. We didn't fight but we'd argue... and later, well, it was business as usual. After the first week of this sexual insanity, I was sure the newness would eventually wear off... and it didn't. My thoughts continued to kinda fuck with me but I think my thoughts realized that it was trying to fight a losing battle.

This joined intimacy was... different. Immoral all up and down the line... but it was there just the same. Guiltless. Shameless. I'd be eating my wife's pussy while my brother and his lady would be sucking my dick and none of it felt "weird" or unusual even when it did. He'd be chowing down on his lady and my wife and I would be doing a number on his dick and in a contest to see which one of us would make him cum first. No clear winner, by the way, and I thought it was funny that the two of them had the same contest going on as well.

Just good, nasty, immoral as fuck fun. Nothing really unusual going on here, just four people having sex with two of them, both male and related, who shouldn't have been doing it. It just was what it was and like I said, if no one minded, it didn't matter.[/SIZE][/FONT]