ZettaiUnmei
Aug 22, 2006, 2:33 AM
OK. This is my first post here. I'm 20 and just recently accepted myself as being bisexual. I've only had a few sexual experiences with girls. And up until yesterday, none with boys.
My best friend is gay. We'll call him Sam. He and his one friend (who is bi) were going to go out to dinner We'll call him Justin. Justin said he was going to bring more people at the last minute so my friend invited me and my roomate. Dinner was awkward and afterwards us four went back to our apartment. Justin drove my himself. In the car Sam told me and my roomie that he kinda had a crush on Justin.
We get there and end up starting to drink. I don't drink very often. As we're all getting a little tipsy I notice that Justin was getting really feely with me. Kinda rubbing my chest and stuff when no one was looking.
I wasn't quite sure how to respond. Then came the vodka shots. Oh! the vodka shots. What happens next I remember in pieces and was told to me the next day.
Justin kept getting feely with me. Apparantly he started kissing Sam but I didn't notice. Justin and myself end up in the kitchen. One of us pins the other against the fridge and we start making out. Sam walks in and sees us.
I don't even notice that he's mad or any of the awkwardness. I was drunker than I've ever seen in my life. So we all go in the living room and Justin says in front of everyone that I was a hot kisser. I respond with something like "That's why I get paid the big bucks." If I was sober the dynamics and tension there would have been so awkward.
At any rate, I pass out at some point. Justin and Sam leave early the next morning. I woke up in a very good mood, remembering little more than I had made out with a guy and it was very hot. Later, Sam and my roomie fill me in on the the details.
Sam is furious and wouldn't talk to me. It's getting better. He says he'll need some time before he can forgive me. My roomie was kind of upset to, because she's fairly good friends with Sam. Although I found out her and ehr friend were laughing about the whole thing when we were out of sight.
I guess that Sam and Justin has kissed a little before the kitchen pinning. I didn't know this. I just thought that the kid was all over everyone and that if no one else was going to respond, I would.
Obviously, I didn't want to hurt my friend. But I was so drunk it didn't even cross my mind. I was drunk, horny, curious, and here is this guy giving me all this attention.
Here's where I need the advice. I know that it's wrong but, I have Justin's e-mail address and I've been debating getting in contact with him. Justin and Sam only talk like once a month. And I know that I shouldn't but...I really want to get in contact with him.
I don't really feel that anything I did whilst I was wasted was TOO horrible. I know I wasn't in the right and that if he liked him i just shouldn't have. But, once again, drunk, horny and here's this guy asking for it.
I think contacting him would be wrong and very rude. But I want to so bad. Talk me out of it. It is wrong, right?
My best friend is gay. We'll call him Sam. He and his one friend (who is bi) were going to go out to dinner We'll call him Justin. Justin said he was going to bring more people at the last minute so my friend invited me and my roomate. Dinner was awkward and afterwards us four went back to our apartment. Justin drove my himself. In the car Sam told me and my roomie that he kinda had a crush on Justin.
We get there and end up starting to drink. I don't drink very often. As we're all getting a little tipsy I notice that Justin was getting really feely with me. Kinda rubbing my chest and stuff when no one was looking.
I wasn't quite sure how to respond. Then came the vodka shots. Oh! the vodka shots. What happens next I remember in pieces and was told to me the next day.
Justin kept getting feely with me. Apparantly he started kissing Sam but I didn't notice. Justin and myself end up in the kitchen. One of us pins the other against the fridge and we start making out. Sam walks in and sees us.
I don't even notice that he's mad or any of the awkwardness. I was drunker than I've ever seen in my life. So we all go in the living room and Justin says in front of everyone that I was a hot kisser. I respond with something like "That's why I get paid the big bucks." If I was sober the dynamics and tension there would have been so awkward.
At any rate, I pass out at some point. Justin and Sam leave early the next morning. I woke up in a very good mood, remembering little more than I had made out with a guy and it was very hot. Later, Sam and my roomie fill me in on the the details.
Sam is furious and wouldn't talk to me. It's getting better. He says he'll need some time before he can forgive me. My roomie was kind of upset to, because she's fairly good friends with Sam. Although I found out her and ehr friend were laughing about the whole thing when we were out of sight.
I guess that Sam and Justin has kissed a little before the kitchen pinning. I didn't know this. I just thought that the kid was all over everyone and that if no one else was going to respond, I would.
Obviously, I didn't want to hurt my friend. But I was so drunk it didn't even cross my mind. I was drunk, horny, curious, and here is this guy giving me all this attention.
Here's where I need the advice. I know that it's wrong but, I have Justin's e-mail address and I've been debating getting in contact with him. Justin and Sam only talk like once a month. And I know that I shouldn't but...I really want to get in contact with him.
I don't really feel that anything I did whilst I was wasted was TOO horrible. I know I wasn't in the right and that if he liked him i just shouldn't have. But, once again, drunk, horny and here's this guy asking for it.
I think contacting him would be wrong and very rude. But I want to so bad. Talk me out of it. It is wrong, right?